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it's interesting to consider being the 7th zen patriarch in terms of the context of retreats and a more public role

i have a feeling i would just lurch from one migraine to another but i have to hand it to lisa cairns who has a retreat  schedule  to die for !

crete (june), ibiza (april), the cotswalds (august), southern spain (february)  (2016)

check out the venues in the link ! :o)

looks good and to be honest, why would you suffer at a zen boot camp somewhere !

its very easy to see how zen is selective for socially stunted very very boring people with less financial reach . . . .

the only thing is lisa talks a bit much and what she says is a bit stupid anyway so i guess you could try to avoid that !

in fact i think my approach through the web is best, a person who actually knows what its all about and people have to work out their own retreats including what almost all seem to find absolutely impossible, getting some contemplative time in on a daily basis, they don't do this then run around like mad dogs thinking they understand something !

lisa is really developing quite a sophisticated operation, marketing, organization, if her health holds up it might get quite big one day . .

she has only a partial grasp of her subject but in the end none of these retreat leaders understand their subject even half way so its all good ! :o)

see what i have figured is that if you are a  ‘ teacher ’  or   ‘ retreat leader ’  then you are really pursuing some illusion about the value or utility of what you are doing, the truth of the nullity, even perversion that is consequent on such endeavour is too depressing to countenance !

the  egyptians  knew the period of the brightness varying star  ‘algol’  3200 years ago and the star was not discovered again until 1669 and its period not worked out again until 1783 !

when you write on the web you want to do it so you can always walk away from it for a while and just leave it there !

so you don't have to remove stuff, when you write it, also think about leaving it . .

when you write on the web you want to do it so you can always walk away from it a while and just leave it there !

so you don't have to remove stuff, when you write it, also think about leaving it . .

only  21  but very   intelligent  !

From a production and sound design standpoint we sat down and I was like ,  ‘ I’m creating a universe.  I’m taking a stab and creating this universe, creating these badlands that I want people to come and be a part of ’

How could I transport my listener there ?  How can I create a landscape ?  How can I create space ?  All my favourite records that I’ve ever listened to  —  Kings Of Leon records, Lana Del Rey records, Kanye records, Frank Ocean records,  1975  records, Arctic Monkeys records  —  I go somewhere when I listen to them

Those records feel like they exist in their own dimension

They exist in a world where everything is consistent

Its got a colour, its got a shape, its got a sound, its got a feeling, it’s got a story and it’s almost real world, but something is not quite right about it

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The Room  93  EP was my indulgence with my obsession with the isolated feeling of being in a hotel room

As I started traveling and making music, everything was out of hotel rooms :  Dating people, having business meetings, trying to keep friendships alive in this isolated prop environment that's like a mock house

‘ Oh we're going to make this little thing that's supposed to look like a house but it's not, it's pretend ’

It's voyeuristic

It's got this security cam mentality, this feeling of isolation

I took that a little further with the record

It's called Badlands because it's supposed to feel like a dystopia, like an isolated wasteland

It's got the Tarantino, Sin City vibe

Badlands is as if you exited Room 93 to the world that it  exists  in

21 years of solitude,   reliquaire   burnt down !

amanda hocking was complaining of depression  (tho with a very autistic list of  symptoms  !)

a commenter who had moved to helinski from the usa in  2013  w r i t e s

. . . but now that I live so close to the nature, I just take a walk outside, sit on the boulders by the sea, listen to the waves, walk in the woods, take photos of the magical fairytale style tree mushrooms and the awesome trees, and feel hell of a lot better

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pets may be helpful but one really needs to be in touch with a bit more as per what you write !

danielle steel is/was a  loose  cannon  !  :  o)

danielle steel is a loose cannon  !  :  o)

 st. giles' cathedral, edinburgh 2013

vaulted ceiling, thistle chapel, st.giles

designed by sir robert  lorimer ,  built in 1911

imgur   —   edinburgh   —   scotland

what impresses me about martin  luther  is how ordinary and  dull  a religious thinker he was . . .

if not for the emergence of low cost  printing  he would have been consigned to the bins of history as another  “has been”

as it is western civilization was indelibly imprinted with a pro breeding anti-mysticism !

one of the interesting things about heidegger, is one could spend a hundred lifetimes, analysing reading and writing on what he said and wrote . . .

he only lived one !

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he made some interesting observations about what one might call economic history, principally the role of technology in human culture and development

but his crowning achievement was to be the only philosopher i have come across to admit that poetry is the only way to express and resolve in a satisfactory manner the existential side of what philosophy is about !

diary  extract  :   “ before leaving the germans, one of their officers told one of ours that they would not fire another shot for two days if we did the same ”

it has always fascinated me that war has rules, like there's some sort of overall structure and you mightn't be dead the next day and there's absolutely no meaning any more !

yeah i have been   surprised   to have had dreams of real  “spirtual”  import, i had always thought they were necessarily random, but some have important meaning  !

yeah i have been surprised to have had dreams of real  “spirtual”  import, i had always thought they were necessarily random, but some have important meaning !

i have been surprised to have had dreams of real  “spirtual”  import, i had always thought they were necessarily random, but some have important meaning !

jason  w r i t e s

one time i decided to climb one of the hills in tassajara where they had their solar panels, you had to walk up past the highest cabins for a good five minutes or more until you reached the top

it was a good hike and some guy gave me a book written by adyashanti and told me to read a certain chapter, i read it near the top but it was pretty bologna

anyway at the top i walked around for a bit and eventually i came to this platform that was sort of hanging off the edge and on the platform was two of their military mattresses with two pillows and a blanket all messed up

at first i thought it was a good spot to watch the stars and i was thinking of going up there myself at night, but then i realized how many people were fucking up there and i got sick, it was one of the moments i realized that tassajara was full of shit

the other moment i realized tassajara wasn't what i was projecting it to be was the first time i got there and the woman leslie greeted us with a fake smile

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good post thanx !

i used to argue with kogen a bit on his blog, he was always trying to put a pile of shit over and you can see this in the most most recent diary post i linked to, only now his health and concerns about his unborn child are not giving him the latitude to ignore the problems of tassajara . . .

i always used to wonder how someone could be so blind to themselves and what was really going on then i read he was in an  “open relationship”  with his wife, in other words they were both fucking around, i was really pissed because i could see i was just wasting my time, it was all one big con, just a cover for promiscuous sex and actually that's pretty much all zen and spirituality like  “ non-duality ”  had ever been about !

the real suckers are the people like me, celibate giving the time of day to these badly behaving shits !

the tassajara work schedule is incredible !

pretty surrounds but the price is too high, slave labour, mindless ritual and all for what ?

you have no independence and are really in a military camp !

if you read the whole diary entry covering  12  days  of life at tassajara, its very illuminating !

i taken so many wrong turnings myself, one is more sympathetic than critical, but it's wrong turning in spades for sure !

“ although it doesn’t seem like we  work  our schedule is just relentless.  From 3:45am until 9:10pm you are pretty much on the move with 45 min break after lunch, a two hour break after work, and half an hour break after dinner.  And don’t think breakfast, lunch and dinners even come close to breaks  —  you are sitting in the zendo, legs crossed, involved in an intricate ritual which is 30 minutes of chanting and mudras, about 7 minutes of actual eating

So one remembers those days when work was over at five and you went home, drank a beer, ate a burger, and watched a movie

Instead of a burger there is the medicine bowl  —  leftovers mixed in one bowl.  Instead of beer, there is a the water you washed your bowls with  —  you drink that.  Instead of a movie . . .yeah, there’s the sound of the bell calling you to your next scheduled event

When things are good, when your robes are clean, and you’re not exhausted, this life is a dream

But if your sick, or lacking in faith, or just wanting to be left alone, well, it gets tough

I’m going up hill, that’s all

Never make decisions while going up hill ”

sepehr, the way i get most of my daily contemplative time in is lights out several hours before bed then just use a red light, walk outside or sit/walk inside depending on the weather and how cold it is

if this amount of daily contemplative time seems too much and for almost everyone its unreasonable then you should live another sort of life . .

don't get caught in the  ‘spiritual’  half way land of gabbling copy and paste idiots of which there are millions on the web and irl !

i had a tooth pulled  (many years ago)  rather than get a root canal, i don't think i would ever get a root canal anyway, but if you have an infection in the bone around the tooth, its better without the tooth !

i have a gap where my right eye tooth used to be, no plans to put an  implant   in ! :o)

“ altogether, 7.6% of patients had lost at least one implant and 14.5% had developed peri-implantitis with pronounced bone loss ”

the jarrow mk-7 (vitamin K2) ,  two or three capsules in the morning really helps rebuild the teeth !

another trick is to get a broad edged dental pick to scrape calculus from the gum line and below !

if you are writing a blog, why bother with a novel, same money in both ! :o)

you  don't understand the interior vision the viewpoints come from, you match what you think the externals are

i am sure you have just skipped over what i said or already have a defense worked out . .

you don't understand the interior vision the viewpoints come from, you match what you think the externals are

i'm feeling quite hard done by zakaj and sepehr, sepehr asked a while back if i  ‘could be his friend ’  i thought why not though personally i am not the friending type, i really have no interest beyond an exploration of reality in people or anything else, but now in hindsight i realise the subtle perversity of this request, it was to establish himself on an equal footing to me and hence he was always arguing and just proving himself a waste of time, why anyone could be so interested in maintaining such distorted versions of reality as he does despite being very talented i do not know !

zakaj wrote as to why he was on the 7th patriach blog  “ because this blog is fun, and your writings are fun and interesting ”

but when i look into zakaj's  guru ,  he is excruciatingly boring and wrong minded, not enlightened at all . . does he have a very much younger devotee as his lover ? ,  he has got what he really wants and all this sandskrit voynich is just a means to an ends !

these guys are not  benign ,  rather rabid nuts with coercive social control  !

while the battle of  cannae  was a superb victory for hannibal, he crippled himself by never attacking the city rome directly, not doing that, ie cutting the head off, he was always doomed !

an uneven genius, his poor tactics at the battle of zama are also a puzzle, he could have weakened scipio's army by retreating into desert country he and his army understood !

really successful generals left long lasting empires, the mongols, julius caesar

i notice i occasionally do a bit of  “ comfort reading ”  on reddit askdocs or medical, when i feel a bit stressed, looking at people whose situtation is worse than mine

schadenfreude   on tap ! ?

my  comment on the linked  OP

it might be a form of epilepsy, there is a wide variety of presentations !

“ the human sense of objectivity may sometimes be  overpowered  by preconception, which includes biases arising from external cues and prior knowledge

the activity patterns in the parietal regions reflected participants' expectations even when they are wrong, demonstrating that subjective belief can override objective reality ”

jason

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what i'm learning from friends is that they eat dumb shit, do dumb shit, and then repeat the cycle

what i learned from going to parties is the moments i remember most is when i would give myself a moment to go outside with no one else

“ julius bahnsen's more persistent claim is that the nature of actual existence is  bipolar ,  that objects and events conflict with one another and  (since they possess opposed properties)  also with themselves and that existence therefore eludes being grasped by formal logic ”

“ julius bahnsen's more persistent claim is that the nature of actual existence is polar, that objects and events conflict with one another and  (since they possess opposed properties)  also with themselves and that existence therefore eludes being grasped by formal logic ”

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i understand if you're still a bit winded from all of that arguing from the past week, and i'll stop asking questions, but i figured last night i should really take advantage of my correspondence with you, i'm quite lucky

i feel like i only write about myself, i'm tired of writing everything with  “ I ”  in it, but the only stuff i read is what you post on mueller ranges

so my question is how can i move past only writing about myself ?

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all i care about when i write something is do i like it ! ?

so if i really like it, its been worthwhile !

in addition i am very careful that the writing does something for me unless it comes fully formed from nowhere, which is usually the case

in that case its like a glittering jewel, i am happy just to have to opportunity to bring it into being . .

but more didactic or prosaic stuff, when i write the writing process has to teach me something, develop me and/or extend a line of reasoning into territory i can see in a more fully formed way whereas before i may have had only a glimpse . .

so actually i never stop writing about myself, that's the mistake sepehr and zakaj and others of their ilk make, they think i am just writing abstract proxy shit and because they cannot be honest with themselves and are afraid to show themselves as they are, they think my writing is like that but its all just me i am afraid ! :o)

jason

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i can see how it's all you

the writing doing something for me, i'm a bit confused/bit understood

the stuff from out of nowhere really is the best

“ the year is  1939 ,  how do you  win  WWII  for the axis powers ? ”

the war was almost lost for the axis powers at this point because germany was destroying the productivity of its middle class by forcing the emigration of jews, this also greatly reduced scientific and military competence compared to if no such event occurred, jews were an important part of the officer class in WW1

but the situation was still salvagable as japan had a surprisingly advanced nuclear program, if they had pooled resources and focused on producing the bomb, maybe they could have got it before the allies and we would all be nazi's or under the thumb of the glorious japanese empire at this point !

if you discount nuclear weapons, germany and japan still had huge issues with incompetent strategy, hitler knew russia was a huge miscalculation by 1942 and wasn't going to fold like in WW1

japan was bedevilled by complete incompetence in its naval direction, bombing pearl harbour, getting a war but not the aircraft carriers which were all that really mattered and huge naval shipbuilding resources put into waste of time giant submarines and not sinking any resources into the naval nuclear bomb program . .

TL;DR  fundamental social control problems like hitler directing military and social strategy and plain strategic stupidity on the part of the japanese who also were completely unequipped with the skills to control and utilize their chinese and manchurian conquests in a way that was productive for them . .

what zen and mysticism requires is a many decade process of tying up loose ends . .

this requires an environment which neither generates so many loose ends, and allows the needed attention to tying

ideally this is celibate solitude, even a monastic enviroment can be unhelpful as the attention to tying is not really there, time and attention wasting services and rituals, conformance to a retarded ideology etc.

married with kids and relationships with their constant gaslighting and sparsity of any sort of time for tying is of course hopeless !

if you want to understand a person ,  look at their children !

they are so much them its not funny !

if you want to understand a person, look at their children !

they are so much them its not funny !


what is death ?

the cessation of every sort of pain ,  but also the loss of light !

what is death ?

the cessation of every sort of pain, but also the loss of light !

zen is an eschatology of failure !

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zen is an eschatology of failure !

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zen is an eschatology of failure !

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zen is an eschatology of failure !

zen is an eschatology of failure

rudyard kipling effectively killed his only son and youngest child ,   john ,  by using his influence to get him a commission in the irish guards at the tender age of 17 !

if i had to give a conclusion about life as i have got older its that life is very uneven and often made so by our pig headedness in taking wrong turnings !

sepehr ,  your ruthless pursuit of self-esteem which taints all you say and do comes from your anti-solipsist inherency  . .

embrace solipsism and all self esteem issues are solved . . !

well you have to see the solipsist inherency of course !

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sepehr ,  your ruthless pursuit of self-esteem which taints all you say and do comes from your anti-solipsist inherency  . .

embrace solipsism and all self esteem issues are solved . . !

well you have to see the solipsist inherency of course !

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sepehr ,  your ruthless pursuit of self-esteem which taints all you say and do comes from your anti-solipsist inherency  . .

embrace solipsism and all self esteem issues are solved . . !

well you have to see the solipsist inherency of course !

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sepehr ,  your ruthless pursuit of self-esteem which taints all you say and do comes from your anti-solipsist inherency  . .

i think the problem with owning a message board or blog with an active public comments section is having to deal with the hostile people who always seem to be attracted to that which is better than them . .

you can deal with them but it takes a huge energy and always leaves ptsd in its wake

it doesn't work to separate commenters or posters into good and bad because both are equally useful . .

“ those people are worthless  and deserve  to be made fun of  ! ”

are they worth the time to do what is essentially a useful correction to them ?

sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear !

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sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear !

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sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear !

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sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear ! :o(

sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear !

sepehr, i think you mode in and out of schizophrenia and at the moment you have moved into a schizophrenic phase, you are very selective for what you want to hear and completely reject what you don't want to hear

“ because life is in  opposites  there is always going to be decay and destruction ”

has lisa been listening to/reading the philosopher jacques derrida ! ? : o)

she has put it well ! :o)

“ as soon as one form becomes its most beautiful, it then begins to decay and be destroyed and change into another form.

there's never going to be peace in the flow of life ”

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it's interesting to compare the racial phenotypes, the product of invasion histories, the mongol influence on eastern europeans  (nurit!)  and russians, a genetic study shows that the average man of the period was fathering 20 children which must be due to the massacring of entire male populations by the incoming invaders !

no wonder human males are so mindlessly warlike, it breeds better than peace !

relationships are the major  transaction  in the lives of women apart from pregnancy and children, they are obliged to optimize it, there's no room for sentiment !

relationships are the major transaction in the lives of women apart from pregnancy and children, they are obliged to optimize it, there's no room for sentiment !


when it comes to religion, the world shows its stupidity and bullshit nature in spades !

the midpoint of this koran parchment  dating  places it having being written when the supposed muhammad was about thirty-six which is way too young and imo the date may have been earlier and fudged because of the danger of placing this koran earlier than his birth ,  the people involved seem born appeasers ! :o)

islam is simply an arabian conscription of judaism and christianity which is why it is so hostile to both !

the character of muhammad, like jesus and buddha has always been fictional, unreal amalgams of different personalities all tied up the wrong way in the same person

warlords are like tamerlane, there is a certain conceptual competence there, but so is the brutality and ruthlessness with subordinates, peers and vanquished enemies . . .

people's nature being such, slavish and obedient  “ disciples ”  can only come a generation or so after the religion has got well established, people who have not be brought up to genuflect the bullshit will not give the time of day to something new !

for all the armament and investigative effort being leveled at isis, what dooms it more surely is this parchment dating !

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sepehr, you have had a good  run  and a lot of attention by me over the last two ? years ,  time for us both to move our separate ways, please do not contact me again !

sepehr  r e p l i e s

but you said you were my friend !

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we profoundly disagree, you can't be friends with some-one where there is huge disagreement on  “ root issues ”

the purpose of the 7th patriarch blog is primarily didactic, i put it up because the  “ spiritual world ” is so full of bullshit, misinfomation and voynich and i had a really hard time working out what was what, so long and hard that i am keen for others to avoid the pitfalls !

you and zakaj have aligned with the enemy camp, what else can i do !

since you yourself must be completely aware of our differing approaches, your persistence puts you in an unflattering light, you just want to bleed me for your own hostile benefit

so i ask again, please go no contact !

friendship is like love, if you really care for some-one else and they no longer want to be part of a relationship with you, you have to listen and part ways !

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you are married and your life is following a different trajectory, don't be the man pulled apart by two horses !

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sepehr, its the same endless issue, you only read what you want to hear when i say something . .

NO  CONTACT  p l e a s e

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sepehr, i am asking for  “ no contact ”  and since asking obviously has no impact i am obliged to enforce it, all your future comments here will be deleted so the blog becomes its claim, that is, without an active comments section

sepehr  r e p l i e s

ok i guess a farewell poem is in order . . .

gosh, I have nothing.

I can't tap into that creativity I used to 4 months ago . . .

zakaj  r e p l i e s

reading the last convo between you and andrew was like reading a convo between a woman and her stalker !

man you really need to take a break from this blog I don't think it's doing you any good

sepehr  r e p l i e s

all of life is disposable.  Love is disposable, friendship is disposable, bodies are disposable, everything is disposable thanks to Infinity

You may love the absorption of Infinity, but I hated it more than anything else.  I want to burn this world, I want to walk amongst its ashes and take the bow to Infinity's heart

This my farewell poem .  You may think Infinity remedies everything but the truth is it only knows how to dispose, and those whose minds become of it, become nothing more than madmen.  Only illusion of idyllic peace is more beautiful, but one must burn everything to make that dream a reality in the fading thoughts into Oblivion

the reason capitalism is so successful is because it treats life as disposable.  it is the truest reflection of infinity, left to suffer in the urban jungle and callousness of men in the hustle and bustle of bullshit institutions !  just a drifting away to the ineffable void

even writing the  tifu  you can see his attitude is silly and unrepentant

he showed extremely poor judgement about the safety of the fright, a frozen ham is a significant weight and very very stiff

i've still got a bad blood blister on my thumb for dropping a piece of firewood on it !

big frights can cause heart attacks, it really takes quite a bit of judgment to pull something like that or a practical joke off . .

one way to think about alcohol is minimum doses to self medicate like say no more than 80ml of a standard drink a day with food or in cooking !

cabrenet sauvignon is the most healthy form of alcohol imo !

jason w r i t e s

it doesn't matter how intelligent you might be, the mind needs to be stretched and not by jerking yourself off with your monotonous thoughts, but by reading others and having experience

there are parallels between giving  feasts  and running a blog with a publically accessible comments section !

the only way i have seen public message boards work is where the owners or moderators don't have any personal  “capital”  that can be  “conscripted”  by freeloaders which of course the net is highly selective of !

“spoiling”  by the mean minded is also another problem !

so in the sense of the above issues ,  reddit zen dosn't suffer the problem of freeloading, but does suffer from spoiling, the most gratuitous example is sniping behind different nicks !

the hardcore zen blog doesn't seem to suffer much from freeloading as to be honest brad's posts are so balthery there's not much to freeload in terms of content though he does have some reputation . .

but it does suffer from  “spoiling”  since it is so obviously dominated by drug brain damaged incompetent musicians . . . who would want to be associated with those people ! ?

gesshin's blog is strongly censored and really there is no reputation to pilfer from and spoiling is eliminated by censorship, but she herself misses one of the big benefits because the censorship excludes any people likely to be useful to her in providing some sort of progression out the faux zen hole she has dug herself into !

so what i have found with the 7th zen partiarch blog at this point is that the commentators don't offer me any progression in dealing with them and the majority are only concerned with pilfering and spoiling and the replies necessary to defeat these 'tards have become too much work !

there's some secret to life that once you twig to it changes everything !


there's some secret to our mortal existance that once you twig to it changes everything !

this is what  “ approval ”  and transmission in zen is about, but of course the field is just full of pretending arseholes, real understanding is very rare !

there's some secret to our mortal existance that once you twig to it changes everything !

there is something beyond ourselves and the conventional understanding of reality, what is it ?

there is something beyond the conventional understanding of ourselves and reality, what is it ?

cats and dogs being carnivores don't have full cheeks !

that's why they  lap water  rather than swallow it !

no suction !

two equivalent   “ koans ”

“ leopardi maintained that  “ knowing ” ,  which is acceptable, is not the same thing as  “ imitating ” ,  which is what madame de  staël  was demanding, and that italian literature should not allow itself to be contaminated by the modern forms of literature but look to the greeks and latin classics

The poet must be original, not suffocated by study and imitation :  only the first poet in the history of humanity could have been truly original since he had no one to influence him

it is therefore necessary to get as close to the originals as possible by drawing inspiration from one's own sentiments without imitating anyone ”

number 22 of the   iron flute

a monk asked pa-ling ,  “ What do the words  ‘ secret transmission in the east and in the west ’  mean ? ”

“ Are you quoting those words from the poem of the third patriarch ? ” pa-ling inquired

“ no ” ,  answered the monk ,  “ those are the words of the master shih-t‘ou ”

“ It is my mistake ”  ,  pa-ling apologized  “ I am such a dotard ”

i think he wants to have his cake and eat it so to speak ,  celibate life without the celibacy  !

i think he wants to have his cake and eat it so to speak, celibate life without the celibacy  !

i think he wants to have his cake and eat it so to speak, celibate life without the celibacy !

i think he wants to have his cake and eat it so to speak, celibate life without the celibacy !

i think he wants his cake and eat it so to speak, celibate life without the celibacy !


imitation

copying

a step in the right direction

a step in the wrong direction

it needs to be blended with a bit

more

to

make it a step in the right

direction  !

imitation

copying

a step in the right direction

a step in the wrong direction

it needs to be blended with a bit

more

to

make it a step in the right

direction

imitation

copying

a step in the right direction

a step in the wrong direction

it needs to be blended with a bit

more

to

make it a step in the right

direction  !

imitation

copying

a step in the right direction

a step in the wrong direction

it needs to be blended with a bit

more

to

make it a step in the right

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from  reddit

I lived in Derry ,  NH  for a few years, home of the Frost family.  They had a small farm a few miles south of us which is now a Frost museum

Derry is a small town and does not have a high school.  So, Pinkerton Acadamy was built as a private school, paid for by town taxes.  Robert, during low income periods of his life, taught at the school.  One interesting story is that Robert invited his students to stop by his office after school to go over end of semester grades.  Most students did not show up.  Those received one grade less with a note   “ perfunctory studies get perfunctory grades ”

Frost and his wife were co-validictorians at their high school in Lowell, Massachusetts

Frost's behavior within his family was not how he appeared in his public persona; he was dismissive of his wife and kids, place his writing above all else  (including making money to feed his family)  and could be cruel, even to his handicaped child.

dave st. germain  writes

if people commenting on a blog are  “giving”  you  PTSD , your claim of being the seventh patriarch becomes rather dubious ”.  you might want to rethink that marketing approach . . .

if you aren't seeking followers/imitators, what's the point of this blog ?  if you are seeking followers/imitators, you're going to attract some crazies

my   r e p l y

dave the ptsd comes from the inherent conflict between viewpoints that differ too much as per reddit zen, it is productive or rather can be but all the same its very wearing

interestingly i almost never get comments on this blog about the authenticity of my vision with the 6th patriarch, its something that happened, since it was authentic then it would be a mistake not to mention it

i'm not marketing or selling anything, the issue is the amount of time i am putting into this blog when i have other important things to do . .

i don't feel i can let the blog run without my input in comments

i can't afford the time for the input

i could close the comments off and just use the blog for posting the occasional link that relates

d u n n o

i don't think it works to select between  “ good ”  and  “ bad ”  commenters, either it is close off commenting completely or let all comments be published and reply as necessary so i guess when looked at that way, there's no choice to but to close off all comments !

ok, the blog is now closed to comments until further notice ! :o)

too involving, need to get my life back ! : o)

history says humans kill each other and are killed in endless quantities

side with the whales ! :o)

tamerlane was  killed  by his doctors !

“ the doctors’ efforts to cure their master, which included packing him in ice as his cold turned to fever, failed and it became clear that he was dying ”

the new heading for the 7th zen patriarch   blog

i had a vision involving the sixth patriarch which designates me as his successor, the seventh patriarch !

people coming on here and bossing me around like they know better are giving me ptsd, if you don't think i know what i am on about just do not post !

some want to just to pass the time and not do any of the real work required !

they take my energy to validate their nonsense !

sepehr  a s k s

what do you want me to address ?

my  r e p l y

that you are here just to pass the time and not do any of the real work required !

tamerlane  for instance, you need to research him to have an opinion, could take several weeks to start to understand the man

you don't have an historical perspective

history has no morality, things simply occur for reasons

you need daily contemplative time

give up the overwriting media does . .

you watch junk so your brain just gets full of junk . .

you post here for validation

sepehr, you keep  deleting  your posts on the 7th patriarch blog !

i keep suggesting you don't ,  but you just ignore what i say

your behavior has to change for you to make progress, small ongoing changes like not deleting posts and getting some contemplation time in and not watching bilge like anime etc

so you wallow around in half done reasoning while not doing the essentials  .  .

you try to think without d o i n g ,  w e l l  i t  d o e s n ' t  w o r k  .  .

“   learning theories show how incremental adaptation is sufficient for a system to exhibit intelligent behaviour

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by evolving the organisation of development that controls variation, the organisation of ecological interactions that control selection or the structure of reproductive relationships that control inheritance  -  natural selection can change its own ability to evolve

if evolution can learn from experience, and thus improve its own ability to evolve over time, this can demystify the awesomeness of the designs that evolution produces

natural selection can accumulate knowledge that enables it to evolve smarter

that's exciting because it   explains  why biological design appears to be so intelligent ”

sepehr, there is another world where concerns about ourselves, what we are and how we might rate in this world just fade . .

one of the reasons i am so concerned about the amount of time i am putting into writing and the 7th patriarch blog is that my time in that world has drifted to very little

its not the world of proxy interests like good films, explanations, people making  “ ubermensch ”  or progress as  “ buddhas ”

its is simply its own speaking and absorption in infinity

more than anything else it is accessible on solitary walks or isolation under the stars

taneda santōka speaks of it

what more is there to say . . .

you are frightened of the dissolution of yourself when you go there . . .

i can't speak for/to that, its your choice . .

its like you are taking a chisel and splitting me down my fault lines . .

and i am sitting back and watching it happen

that's what it takes . .

s e l f d e s t r u c t i o n

a lot of disappointment and failure in life

you won't worry so much about being  “ ubermensch ”  then . .


sepehr ,  there is another world where concerns about ourselves, what we are and how we might rate in this world just fade . .

one of the reasons i am so concerned about the amount of time i am putting into writing and the 7th patriarch blog is that my time in that world has drifted to very little

its not the world of proxy interests like good films, explanations, people making  “ ubermensch ”  or progress as  “ buddhas ”

its is simply its own speaking and absorption in infinity

more than anything else it is accessible on solitary walks or isolation under the stars

taneda santōka speaks of it

what more is there to say . . .

you are frightened of the dissolution of yourself when you go there . . .

i can't speak for/to that, its your choice . .

its like you are taking a chisel and splitting me down my fault line . .

and i am sitting back and watching it happen

that's what it takes . .

s e l f d e s t r u c t i o n

a lot of disappointment and failure in life

you won't worry so much about being  “ ubermensch ”  then . .

sepehr, i ask you to leave, you post more vigorously, i complain of too much of my time being spent on the 7th zen patriarch blog, you ask a time intensive favour

i say you are  “proxying”  instead of doing anything  (in!)  real life, you promote a  spiritual  film

you are like gesshin, one can take a chip off a granite block, but the rest is unchanged  !

“  . .  unstable blood vessels, disrupting proper delivery of blood to the brain

. . . in a typical brain, blood vessels are stable, thereby ensuring a stable distribution of blood, whereas in the autistic brain, the cellular structure of blood vessels continually fluctuates, which results in circulation that is fluctuating and, ultimately, neurologically limiting

. . .  angiogenesis  is correlated with more neurogenesis in other brain diseases, therefore there is the possibility that a change in brain vasculature in autism means a change in cell proliferation or maturation, or survival, and brain plasticity in general, these changes could potentially affect brain networks ”

“ the brains of children who suffer clinical depression as preschoolers develop abnormally, compared with the brains of preschoolers unaffected by the disorder

their gray matter  —  tissue that connects brain cells and carries signals between those cells and is involved in seeing, hearing, memory, decision-making and emotion  —  is lower in volume and  thinner  in the cortex, a part of the brain important in the processing of emotions

. . . why children and others who are depressed have difficulty regulating their moods and emotions ”

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also i was reading about how mothers who take antidepressants while pregnant have a higher risk of having autistic children !

“ serotonin is involved in numerous pre- and postnatal developmental processes, including cell division, the migration of neurons, cell differentiation and synaptogenesis  —  the creation of links between brain cells

some classes of antidepressants  (ssri's and others)  work by inhibiting serotonin, which will have a negative impact on the ability of the brain to fully develop and adapt in-utero ”

w r i t i n g

t a k e s  a l l  y o u r  a t t e n t i o n

k e e p s  y o u  p o o r

i s  f o r  t h e  e n l i g h t e n m e n t  o f

a   c r a p p y  s p e c i e s

s   o   —    —   !  §

w r i t i n g

t a k e s  a l l  y o u r  a t t e n t i o n

k e e p s  y o u  p o o r

i s  f o r  t h e  e n l i g h t e n m e n t  o f

a   c r a p p y  s p e c i e s

s   o   —    —   !  ¿

w r i t i n g

t a k e s  a l l  y o u r  a t t e n t i o n

k e e p s  y o u  p o o r

i s  f o r  t h e  e n l i g h t e n m e n t  o f

a   c r a p p y  s p e c i e s

s   o   —    —

w r i t i n g

t a k e s  a l l  y o u r  a t t e n t i o n

k e e p s  y o u  p o o r

i s  f o r  t h e  e n l i g h t e n m e n t  o f

a   c r a p p y  s p e c i e s

s   o

i've got a whale skull on my front porch !

if it was a human skull i'd be in trouble

but its a whale skull so . .  ̲

: o (

i've got a whale skull on my front porch !

if it was a human skull i'd be in trouble

but its a whale skull so . .  ̲

: o ) (

i've got a whale skull on my front porch !

if it was a human skull i'd be in trouble

but its a whale skull so . .  ̲

: o ( )

i've got a whale skull on my front porch !

if it was a human skull i'd be in trouble

but its a whale skull so . .  ̲

ultra functional for   ultradestroyed   !

ultra functional for ultradestroyed  !

ultra functional for ultradestroyed  !

ultra functional for ultradestroyed

ultra functional for ultradamage  !

ultra functional for ultradamage  !

ultra functional for ultradamage

breakingup

we have a lot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of t i m e  !

breaking up

we have a lot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of t i m e

break up

we have a lot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of time !

breakup

we have a lot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of time

we have alot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of t i m e !

we have alot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of t i m e

we have alot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of time !

we have alot of commonality, notions of blame and that sort of shit are just a waste of time

on the water

a

wanderers

reflection

on the water

a

wanderers  reflection

haiku  by  taneda santōka

on the water

a

wanderers  r e f l e c t i o n

on the water

a

wanderers

r e f l e c t i o n


fake  zen versus real zen

from taneda santōka's dairies

march 28, 1933

even if it means nothing to eat, I don’t want to do any more of that hateful begging !

people who have never done any begging seem to have difficulty understanding how I feel about this

november 26, 1934

loving sake, savoring sake, enjoying sake is not so bad

but drowning in sake, rioting in sake  —  that won’t do !

running around drinking in this messy way  —  utterly stupid !

november 4, 1939

the rain began coming down in earnest and the wind was blowing hard . . .   it blew my hat off, and my glasses went flying too  —  what a mess !

but a grade-school student passing by retrieved them for me  —  many, many thanks !

rain kept getting worse, wind blowing stronger all the time  —  nothing to do but stop for the night at okutomo  —  but none of the inns would have me

let it be !  is all I say and, looking like a drowned rat, I walk on, finally can't go on any longer and take shelter in the lee of a roadside warehouse

I wring out my clothes, eat lunch, stay there for two hours

deluge !  —  no other word for it  —  violent wind lashing it around, sheets of rain streaming sideways like a loose blind

I felt as though I had been bashed flat by heaven  —  a rather splendid feeling in fact

with evening I was able to make it as far as sishikui, but again nobody would take me in

finally I got to kannoura, where I found an inn that would give me lodging, much to my relief

there it is in his own words, if this was recorded in some sort of hagiographical tradition, deities would be popping out at every corner wishing him luck and giving him comfort/sententious advice and at the end some kind benefactor would take him in, give him a nice bed and wonderful dinner and send him on, weighed down by cash the next day !

the zen construct of all knowing masters, preferably at the head of some sort of financially useful congregation, dispensing pearls of obscure wisdom to monks hanging upon their every insult is total crap or fanciful hagiography . . .

real zen masters take every wrong turning possible in life and beaten and bruised get rejected by just about every inn they call at . .

it's not a life to be sought, but is only the consquence of so making so many life mistakes !

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sepehr  a sk s

I was just asking what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being bad ?

my

r e p l y

what's your argument for  “greed”  “hatred”  and  “delusion”  being useful categories for discussion ?

sepehr  a sk s

I was just asking what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being bad ?

my

r e p l y

what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being useful categories for discussion ?

sepehr  a sk s

I was just asking what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being bad ?

my

r e p l y

what's your argument for  “greed”  “hatred”  and  “delusion”  being useful categories ?

sepehr  a sk s

I was just asking what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being bad ?

my

r e p l y

what's your argument for greed, hatred, and delusion being useful categories ?

there's a lot of ra rah about steve jobs as a supremely successful businessman, but what he said when he was dying was that when he had enough money for him and his family to live very well for the rest of their lives he should have stopped spending his time in business and the running of apple and done other more personally rewarding things !

he had been somewhat fooled by the accolades and attention he was getting !

zakaj  asks

isn't it hypocritical though, considering you dismissed gabriel pradiipaka on the grounds that he censors his board, for the  VERY SAME  reason you're doing it now ?

my

r e p l y

yes, i have been thinking about this, one of the reasons i am sensitive on the topic is i am the most banned person on the internet, mostly any message board i get banned, even innocuous stuff, just my style of writing is enough to upset people !

but is it censorship that is the problem or people's natural aversion to the sort of mind stretching paradigm i am an embodiment of ?

i do think censorship is an issue, the only post i have deleted so far was some nonsense link from sepehr which was typical i though of his  “ cut and paste ”  rather than any real contemplative work approach

sepehr's  link

so now i guess technically, no post has been censored

it does concern me and if i had endless time things could continue as before, as it is, the moderation system seems to work well technically and really i do not know what to do at this point . .

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zakaj,  what you  say  is like sepehr, you have some sort of projection of what i am saying . .

neither you nor sepehr accept that you really don't understand and in a way have never got to first base and then to cover this up, develop or rather claim myself as having a certain proxy system which  (lol)  seems to consist of

“ if I just sit in this beautiful natural spot and read sylvia plath while i simultaneously listen to an audio recording of toni packer . . .  that might do it ”

there are fundamental experiences which completely change one's views and sense of reality, that's not in my provenance to control or even as you say provide some assist towards, but the working through of those experiences  (some of which i now think may not be even remembered or have much conciousness of at all)  is a lifetime's slog . .

so really my objection to you and sepehr is your not having sufficient depth of these experiences to feel that  “ changed view of reality ”  enough to take the business sufficiently seriously and stop proxying and start doing things for real !

sepehr is particularly upsetting because imo he was always marginally schizophrenic and in my view he has become more schizophrenic recently and its sort of upsetting to see someone swept away like that, but of course we see it in life and in own own families  as well . .

this sorta brings us back to the original problem of me finding you and sepehr too  PTSD'y to deal with, you really have different viewpoints about where you are and your degree of understanding and so i find myself fighting against that whenever you post . .

in the end everyone makes this call, when i was staying at the mt. tremper zen monastery in the early nineties, i came to the conclusion that john loori, while he had some strong points as an environmentalist and photographer, when it came to zen he didn't know what he was on about, so i left and eventually ended up at springwater and it was such a relief to find someone who knew what she was on about, sunlight in a world that preferred dreary bullshit, indeed tried to snuff the light if it could . .  so to s p e a k

thank you for your offer to stop posting, what i am really saying is we do differ quite strongly in our views and really you should act according to the way you are voting and move with it which would be more real life involvement with the Shaiva tradition which may involve travel or whatever, i don't think its complete nonsense, rather it will be like zen, mostly nonsense and one gets impregnated or something and then has to spend 20 years working out that its mostly a subtle system of voynich/bullshit . .

maybe sepehr needs a few years of travelling scuba diving or whatever ?

just keep well inside the tables and avoid microbubbles !

“ I  hurt  him too much ”

from experience i can tell you that barrier cannot be climbed over, you have to move on !

two religions ,  one crazy as another ,  judaism and christianity ,  really weird to read  this  knowing that the projected historical reality of christianity in the article is false !

moby dick only sold a few thousand copies in herman melville's lifetime !

the essex  !

“ the best predictor of future behaviour  is past behaviour ”

“ the best predictor of future behaviour is past behaviour ”

“ as we all know, attitudes speak louder than words ! ”

“ as we all know, attitudes speak louder than words ”

“ attitudes speak louder than words ! ”

“ attitudes speak louder than words ”

zakaj queries this  line  of mine just below

“ your guru has some sort of sex scandal in his past ”

my  r e p l y

he mentions it in a buried post on his  website ,  doesn't mention what it was, but he is argentinian which is a very macho culture so most likely its the usual shagging of an attractive young woman !

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another quote/query by zakaj of my writing

“ because they are peopled by crazy boring farts and this board is authentic and interesting ? ”

** because this blog is fun, and your writings are fun and interesting **  is zakaj's comment

ok zakaj, your reply avoids mentioning me as authentic, so you don't regard me as authentic, in which case i am asking you not to continue posting here, the problem is really i just don't have the time and want to reduce the number of posts here so i can get out of  message board ptsd

what you should do to the get the guru crap out of your system, is set yourself up as a guru, you don't need to understand shit, just to be young and good looking is enough, you'll get your audience, you organise and lead retreats with occasional talks, do some by skype ?

look at how much work it is to answer your post thoroughly, i can't afford the time so please take this as walking you out of what is really a private blog !

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ok sepehr and zakaj win

i can see its just going to go on forever, it is an intrinsic problem with public boards, you can't expect people to show any consideration or restraint and they don't ,  just milk your valuable time for their own amusement

i will answer most private contacts, but when i don't reply to you sepehr its because we are   “ divorced ”  and if i never heard from you again, it would be great !

now i can start to recover my life abit ! :o)

the board is now on moderation, i think everyone can take that as not accepting any comments !

tl;dr  got sick of my time being freebee'd for the entertainment of inconsiderate tards !

to be fair to sepehr he did make one good suggestion

“ you're just wasting time arguing with people online . .

spend more time writing poetry or literature instead of  BSing to others ”

sometimes science fiction is not so   far off  !

“ because gliese  667C  is part of a triple system, anyone standing on one of the planets would see three suns in the sky

at night, the two companion stars would be as bright as the full moon on earth ”

be celibate and avoid  this  !

my god !

read the comments ! :o(

sepehr, your complete lack of self awareness tells me you are not doing any contemplative time, honestly if i want idiots raving at me i can post on reddit zen !

what is the purpose of the 7th zen patriarch   blog  ?

1.   it is to provide links to my pages where i think there is a particular reference to zen or of interest

2.   its intended to have a low volume and not very taxing comments section that acts of a sort of  “ help desk ”  for those interested in taking advantage of my experience in zen and  “ quality mysticism ”  and naturally if you would do that you would think i must basically know what i am on about !

3.   if you basically disagree with me, which for example the posters zakaj and sepehr do, then our views are always going to clash and we end up with the  PTSD  type situation of reddit zen which is basically an endless dispute about who is right . -

4.   if you don't think i know what i am on about just do not post !

you have your own agendas and interests and why you cannot see that you should follow these interests and pursue them rather than be constantly in conflict with me i do not know !

your views are different ,  go the ways your views direct and don't be hypocrites sucking up my energy because i am the only authenticity you can find !

“ exposure to farm animals in early childhood modifies the key  allergy-related  immunological mechanisms ”

the evolutionary business of women is the bearing and raising of children, things are never going to be stable, unless they are doing that !

the evolutionary business of women is the bearing and raising of children, things are never going to be stable, unless they are doing that

sepehr  w r i t e s

I told you awhile back I've left Zen behind.

I still have an interest in traveling, reading poetry  (such as Emily Dickinson) ,  scuba diving around the world, and etc.

I said I don't care about enlightenment anymore beyond deriving a suitable NORMATIVE ethics.

my

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sepehr, the 7th patriarch board is about what  enlightenment  is and entails !

you are out of context and would you p l e a s e f u c k o f f

you are not welcome, go away, what else can i say mr.  “ normative ethics ”  hippopotamus skin ?

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sepehr you have been asked to leave !

years ago i had to ban two people on my health boards, one was quite crazy and nastily abusive to sensitive female members of the forum  (unbelievably she worked as a nurse in a hospital ward of developmentally disabled children)  and the other made death threats

you have come quite schizophrenic, what can i do ?

i will at some point start deleting your posts, you really seem unable to take a graceful exit !

i'm busy and don't want to piss a significant portion of my time away for your freebee entertainment !

larry eigner

i push  backwards  and go forwards

18 is  too young  to be in a full time relationship !

its difficult for men to understand women, you are just better to observe for a few years and develop a sense of red flags for who will or won't make a suitable long term partner and mother to your children ! !

any sort of substance problem whether current or in the past is a red flag !

even if they are now on the wagon ,  their reproductive systems have been damaged !

 nā pali coast cliffscape, kauai island, 4.2 MB

the nā pali coast, kauai island

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I recognize his skull, mother said

by its beautiful white teeth.

Beautiful white teeth

biting into the soil.

beautiful brown eyes

filled with soil.

strong white bones

that once were hands,

hands that never caressed a woman,

strong young bones

caressing the soil

. . . Inconceivable is the harvest

of beautiful brown eyes,

the barren harvest

of the unfeeling earth

. . . Inconceivable is the  harvest

of beautiful brown eyes,

the barren harvest

of the unfeeling earth

zakaj, the soviets had no belief in effective  science , they murdered or sent to the gulag plenty of top ranking scientists, stalin still went to confession occasionally

heidegger to the end of his days never apologised for his support of the nazi party and in fact he said to his nephew at the end of the war that he was sorry to lose his train ticket discount that nazi party members got !

you know, the murder of a large portion of the eastern european and german middle class and a horrendously destructive war, all so heidegger got a discount on trains, he never seems to have mentioned that in his post war writings or talks !

you are going through life as a hubric retard, one would think that you would take advantage of what the 7th patriarch blog offers to upgrade your cognitive act, but like sepehr you only seem to travel downhill !

i am sorry you don't worship your beautiful countryside and national parks . .

i have seen this both on the web and in real life, the endless idiots, the 99.99% who become involved with zen, non duality or whatever remain so incompetent in their subject of interest that only within censored contexts like a center or monastery or message board can they spill and dribble their mental garbage . . 

in the real world if they did that they would be rightly dissed for spewing bullshit

well i can't stop you and sepehr, this board is not censored, it does me good to see how types like you really operate and i must say one or two things sepehr has done recently have opened my eyes about his behavior, its thoughtless hubric laziness !

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zakaj, a good  summary  of heidegger

since you are such a fan of his, why don't you take on board his thesis, that one needs a deep understanding of being and not the sort of jerry built intellectual structure you are pushing ! !

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zakaj, your guru has a message board, i have seen it, why don't you post there ?

if only you could take sepehr with you !

that would be three retards/losers on one message board ! :o)

your guru has some sort of sex scandal in his past, maybe you could investigate, be sympathetic he needs something to enliven the sheer boring crap he pushes !

its such a basic thing, same with sepehr, why are you posting here and not on the boards consonant with your belief systems ?

because they are peopled by crazy boring farts and this board is authentic and interesting ?

why not think about the inconsistency ?

tess gallagher doing a sort of  mimicry  of john moriarty, but ok for all that !

iodine tinctures can be put on the skin or the gums or taken in milk or vinegar or a hydrogen peroxide solution, you have to work out what is best for you, i put iodine tincture on my toes because that works best for migraine !

iodine tincture has a tiny amount of ethyl alcohol in, same as in wine, so is safe unlike wood alcohol

just put some on my toes now actually as i feel migrainey, on the toes means more iodine goes to the blood and thins it abit

i also use the betadine  povidine iodine “ sore throat gargle ”  as a tincture on the toes and toe nails

you need to write stuff up or you forget, its the only way out !

you need to write stuff up or you forget, its the only way out

the  ‘ doing ’  of what true mysticism/zen/the 7th patriarch blog is about

is slow changes over a long time, you have talent, but the road is always difficult !

jonathon, actually i felt guilty for not talking to you about the problems of writing suicidal stuff on a blog that family and friends can read, you have to be careful of what you say in some areas, most other stuff even if gritty i find is ok !


jason  w r i t e s

springwater center has uploaded some audio  recordings  of toni packer

my

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that brings me back, the tapes were stored in a small room with the audio equipment at springwater, i went through listening to them, recent ones  (when i was there in the very early nineties)  and a couple of very early ones which related to the break up from the rochester zen center, they were really quite mean to her . .

for years after my first stay at springwater i listened to the tapes, they really helped with a sort of progression in understanding, when i look back at at the amount of work i did . .

a good  talk  !

people just have no idea of the ongoing intense focus needed . .

and at my age now i look at all the idiots with the  “ bower bird ”  approach . .

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

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if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

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if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

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if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

: o ( )

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

: o )

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes   ! 

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes  !

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes  !

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes !

if we start to modulate our perception of the past, the future changes


religious bullshit requires  censored  environments to survive, i notice both zakaj and sepehr who are used to censored message boards, r/zen and the hardcore zen blog respectively, don't really adapt to the 7th zen patriarch blog, they spew forth like some sort of mod protection will emerge which of course it does on those milksop boards, i am banned on the hardcore zen blog and have had posts removed on r/zen and in the end got so consistently heavily downvoted it was just too punishing in terms of the loss of karma so that i can no longer post there

so really they are complete arseholes, just sitting there with their endless crap and so stupid to not realise there ain't no mommy to protect them . .

they want to use the authenticity of the 7th patriarch  blog  to bolster whatever mind games they have got trapped in

with religion its just a question of what style of sex addiction or deviancy, at least these people like all the addicts in zen or paedophiles in hinduism and its ilk are doing it for a reason, idiots like john loori, george bowman, shugen, sepehr and zakaj who support the whole sordid superstructure despite not having these issues are the t r u e  s u c k e r s  . .

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i think sepehr and zakaj are just feeding on the energy on the 7thpatriarch blog and too bloody lazy to do any work themselves

if you believe  in an afterlife  as sepehr does then why waste your time on my blog, surely one would be doing what ever is necessary for a better place in it !

see even that tiny amount of work to ensure some consistency between what one says and does seems to be beyond them !

“ the australian blue-banded bee gets the pollen by  banging  its head on the flower's anthers at a staggering  350  times a second ”


no contact is a philosophical position

it's rather amazing that  “ no contact ”  is part of the physics of time travel !

what you are trying to do is get processing of the changed relationship status without the constant upsetting real world disturbance of dealing in real life with the ex !

that is, to continue to deal with the ex is to disrupt your processing of the termination of the relationship

having been no contact for several months now i find it just amazing what i have been able to put together, just like a jigsaw with an overall picture forming

particularly one can form an objective view without having one's thinking consistently distorted by the ex's  “gaslighting”  . .

that is, in the terms of time travel  physics ,  one is getting quantum processing between two entangled entities  ( yourself and the ex )  without any changes from the past interfering in a destructively recursive way

you have unread messages in an open timelike curve

that is, what you might tell the ex, but in fact you never tell them . .

miraculously there is a lot of healing in these unread messages

read messages in a closed timelike loop which is what the ex reads because you have told them ignites gaslighting and the whole bizarre flame of a dead relationship into some very unsatisfactory space

tl;dr  you need to process the relationship and break up without gaslighting by the ex and for this a long period of no contact is required !

if you do the processing correctly you will walk away the clear winner !

“ the new limits on the dark matter interaction strength allow for the possibility that an oscillating, low-mass dark matter field coupled to standard model particles causes variations in the fundamental constants

the fundamental constants are  ‘ fine-tuned ’  to be consistent with the existence of life in the universe

if the physical constants were even slightly different, life could not have appeared

the discovery of varying fundamental  ‘ constants ’  may help shed important light on how the physical constants came to have their life-sustaining values today.

we simply appeared in an area of the Universe where they are  consistent  with our existence ”

jason  writes

one time when i was younger i hopped on the piano and played keys to my liking, it was nice sounding and i had a vision of of dolphins jumping in and out of water

my mother liked the sound and asked me to play again, problem was it couldn't be played again, the moment was gone

sepehr the nature of existance is a pyramid and goes like this

uncountable universes one or a tiny few of which are capable of supporting the evolution of life for some limited duration

life evolves into conciousness of sufficiently high phi to create populations which have at some extremes defective neural mechanisms that in certain circumstances can synchronize and be in identity with infinity

notions of  “rebirth”  are for retarded children !

the nature of existance is a pyramid and goes like this

uncountable universes one or a tiny few of which are capable of supporting the evolution of life for some limited duration

life evolves into conciousness of sufficiently high phi to create populations which have at some extremes defective neural mechanisms that in certain circumstances can synchronize and be in identity with infinity

surgery to remove herniated spinal disc material is usually  not advised  because problems with the remaining disc are not addressed and thus surgery for mild degeneration may have no long-term advantage over leaving the herniated material to be naturally absorbed

disc herniation and the surgery itself may significantly contribute to the further destabilization of the  disc joint, which contributes to progression of degeneration in surrounding tissues

age-related changes in vertebral discs are characterized by cellular apoptosis, a decrease in collagen and proteoglycan content that leads to water loss

these changes may lead to weakening of the lamellar annulus fibrosus, allowing the nucleus pulposus to bulge and potentially herniate through an annular fissure, causing neural compression and clinical  symptoms  ( i.e., disc herniation )

all i have seen of hinduism is a hidden agenda of gurus and boys, girls or young women !


a chinese ghost story ,  ‘ seijo and her soul ’

During the T’ang dynasty, there lived a man called Chokan.  He  had two daughters.  When the elder girl died, he devoted himself to the younger, Seijo.  As she grew up he turned his attention to the question of a suitable husband for her and eventually selected a good and strong young man.

But Seijo had already taken her cousin Ochu as her lover.  She  had grown up with him in a union blessed since childhood, and she considered herself betrothed to him.  When Chokan announced that his choice of a suitor was to arrive in the village, Seijo became cast down and sad.  Ochu, unable to bear the prospect of witnessing the betrayal, left the village without saying farewell.  He took his boat and rowed into the night.

As he rowed he noticed the outline of a figure running along the bank.  He put into the shore to see who it was; and there was Seijo, tear stained and adamant.  Together they travelled to a distant land where they lived as man and wife.  Five years went by.  Seijo gave birth to two girls.  But though she loved Ochu and the children, she was weighed down by the dishonour she’d done to her father.  All this she told to Ochu.  And he admitted that he too longed for his homeland.  “ Let us go back and beg forgiveness ”  he suggested.

And so they returned.  At the port, Ochu left Seijo and the girls while he walked to the village.  He went directly to Chokan’s house, confessed the whole story and bowed his head at their ungrateful behaviour. Chokan received him kindly.  "Which girl do you mean?" he asked.  "Your daughter Seijo," Ochu replied.  "That is not possible," Chokan said.  "Seijo is here in the house with me.  Since you left the village without bidding her farewell she has lain here; she lies here now."

Mystified, Chokan refused Ochu’s invitation to go with him to the port. Instead he sent a servant to check the boat.  When the servant returned, reporting that it was indeed Seijo who waited there, Chokan took Ochu into the house.  "She has not spoken since you left," he said. "It is as if she has been absent in mind, or drugged.  Now I see that her soul left to follow you."  So saying, he showed Ochu into Seijo's room.  Hearing the story, Seijo rose from her bed, still without speaking, and walked out into the village just as Seijo and her children stepped from the cart that had brought them from the port.  The silent Seijo moved forward to greet her, and as she did, the two were united.

Chokan spoke to Seijo.  "Ever since Ochu left this village, you have not uttered a word, and you have always been absent in mind as if you were drugged.  Now I see that your soul left your body and has been with Ochu".  To this Seijo replied, "I did not know that I was sick in bed at home.  When I learned that Ochu had left this village in distress, I followed his boat that night, feeling as if it were a dream.  I myself am not sure which was the real me  -  the one with you, sick in bed, or the one with Ochu as his wife".

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the above story is the basis for a mumonkan koan which asks, which is the true Seijo ?

my reply

which is the untrue one ?

some people take really w r o n g  t u r n i n g s

wrong wrong turnings

two wrongs don't make a right !

: o ( )

some people take really w r o n g  t u r n i n g s

wrong wrong turnings

two wrongs don't make a right !

: o ) (

some people take really w r o n g  t u r n i n g s

wrong wrong turnings

two wrongs don't make a right !

some people take really w r o n g  t u r n i n g s

some people take really wrong turnings

notions of an afterlife are complete   balderdash    ! 

for one thing it would be crawling with ants  !

let's not talk about flys  !

notions of an afterlife are complete   balderdash    ! 

for one thing it would be crawling with ants  !

notions of an afterlife are complete   balderdash    ! 

notions of an afterlife are complete balderdash  !

notions of an afterlife are complete balderdash !

notions of an afterlife are complete balderdash


a surprising  quote  from  ‘ the gay science ’  by friedrich nietzsche ,   “ danger for vegetarians ”

another quote

in the end we are always rewarded for our good will, our patience, fair-mindedness, and gentleness with what is strange

sepehr you write

“ why should infinity matter to me if there is no greater fruit to it ? ”

yes there is a  “ greater fruit ”  and that's what being enlightened in zen is about, it's for you to discover and not keep blinding yourself with the acres of continual crap that you think passes for  “ working something out ”

i will never die, others may but i never will !

that's because the context that defines death also disappears and without context then what you define becomes meaningless !

i will never die, others may but i never will !

that's because the context that defines death also disappears and without context then what you define becomes meaningless !

sepehr, why spend your entire life constructing/calculating fake  blockchains  ?

i will never die, others may but i never will !

that's because the context that defines death also disappears and without context then what you define becomes a hash !

sepehr, why spend your entire life constructing/calculating fake blockchains  ?

jason  w r i t e s

alone my whole life

rough water

smooth water

alone my whole life

smooth water

rough water

jason  w r i t e s

americans can list off actors/actresses, facts about them and go on and on, but they can't say anything meaningful about themselves !

kobun chino

he drowned trying to save his daughter he didn't save

people glorify ineffective idiots !


interestingly a corollary of david deutsche's open and closed/unread messages on time like curves changing history is that open messages in the present also change the future, which we know to be true from our experience

however you can take the view that the future is somewhat fixed in a similar nature to the past which implies that if the world is too open to messages in the present that life and our world as we know it would become extraordinarily unstable . .

historically the open message that religion is bullshit had as a direct consequence the murderous soviet and chinese communist regimes since religion has always acted as a socializing break on the usual human genocidal tendencies, the message was too powerful and actually distorted since religion does usually carry at its heart some sense . .

so the fact that you don't seem to take a word of what i write in my  “ open messages ”  is part of the the boundary condition of a sort of  “ metaphysics ”  maintaining the stability of the world

so of necessity people cannot really take on board what i say and in fact what i say being taken on board must leak out of the future in a limited way, similar to how i take on board the great the minds and writings of the past . .

there are physics of reality that do not permit people to understand the mysticism i talk about !

i'm not being unfriendly, but really i think  you  would find it instructive to do some research on  “ borderline personality disorder ”

knowledge is power, one learns to be aware of ,  and work around problem areas !

“ 8 years US Air Force nearly to the day with 3 Iraq deployments under my belt, and killing is never a simple affair.  I don't know one person alive that killed someone in Iraq that doesn't see the face of those they killed every night before they go to sleep, if they can sleep.  A good buddy of mine in culinary school was in one of the invading groups in the Army that first went into Iraq.  While street-sweeping, a young women was stopped, who quickly went to reach under her robes.  In the moment, he shot her down.  Honestly, it was out of fear.  It was a conditioned, trained response, that anyone in the same circumstances would have done.  Anyone who hesitates would have probably been dead long before encountering this situation.  What was she reaching for ?  An american flag, he found.  He only ever saw her eyes, but he confessed to me that he has  nightmares  about her eyes every night. ”

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“ Great for you man.  Not everyone is as well disciplined as you it seems.  If it were me, I can't say.  I know that some of my friends that waited a bit too long died because of it.  It makes the other guys a bit jumpier.  I was lucky enough to be IT in the Air Force, as opposed to Army Infantry. ”

culture warp    ! 

jan svankmajer

jason

w r i t e s

i guess that i wish there was more in real life zen

my

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lol, there's the 7th  patriarch  and that's about it !

the way these things work is it will be a big deal after i am dead, but not before ! : o)

you are sorta chasing something which won't exist for you  (ed.  some nice comfy  “ monastic life ”  at a rural center where you can pass your days without hassle ! :o)  and ignoring your real problem which is skills to earn a better income !

shugen's stuck at the mt. tremper zen monastery just like everyone else there, broke and dealing with something he has only half an understanding of, take the lesson of ryushin and george bowman to heart !

“ brain  ‘ plasticity ’  is the ability to form and maintain connections between brain cells as things are  learned ”

the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change a lot !

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! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change a lot !

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the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change a lot !

: o ( )

the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change a lot !

the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change alot !

the young don't know that even in  25  years cultural attitudes can change alot

 mephistopheles and margaretta; single block of sycamore/hare-wood, 19th century, france, sculptor unknown, salar jung museum, hyperabad

margarete / gretchen was executed for killing her baby after being abandoned by the father, faust !

geothe was in fact a judge in a trial of a woman who committed infanticide and was sentenced to death, he never publically regretted his decision but i think underneath it bugged him !

conjuring/computating   mephistopheles

 mephistopheles and margaretta; single block of sycamore/hare-wood, 19th century, france, sculptor unknown, salar jung museum, hyderabad

at my age all the advantage is to celibacy !

: o ) (

at my age all the advantage is to celibacy !

: o )

at my age all the advantage is to celibacy !

at my age all the advantage is to celibacy

celibacy . .

relationships take huge amounts of energy and for what ?

i'm at the end of life not the beginning !

celibacy . .

relationships take huge amounts of energy and for what ?

i'm at the end of life not the beginning

i have noticed that people who take lsd don't seem much wiser for the experience  . .

despite their claims of profundity . .

the reason is that it is a  pro psychotic ,  not simply an hallucinogen !

“ using fMRI, the investigators showed that  LSD  led to a more chaotic brain state not entirely dissimilar to what is seen in the prodromal phase of psychosis ”

to see photos of family friends taken at an event many years later is to see thickset ghosts !

to see photos of family friends at an event many years later is to see thickset ghosts !

to see photos of family friends many years later is to see thickset ghosts !

jason  w r i t e s

he blatantly doesn't listen, i can understand though as i didn't really hear you out when i first spoke to you

vitamin A   helps with winter viruses   ! 

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“ vitamin A ”  helps with winter viruses   ! 

: o )

“ vitamin A ”  helps with winter viruses  !

:o )

“ vitamin A ”  helps with winter viruses   !

“ vitamin A ”  helps with winter viruses !

vitamin A helps with winter viruses !

yeah meditation or contemplation ,  several hours a day is needed is the problem . .

or straight do nothing time, if you just do half an hour, it doesn't seem to work . .

yeah meditation or contemplation ,  several hours a day is needed is the problem . .

yeah meditation or contemplation, several hours a day is needed is the problem . .

yeah ewk is off target like sepehr ,  its like they take things at a tangent and can't argue the main point of a post !

yeah ewk is off target like sepehr, its like they take things at a tangent and can't argue the main point of a post !


“ quantum particles sent on a timeloop could gain super computational power, even though the particles never interact with anything in the past

I   II

the reason there is an effect is because some information is stored in the entangling correlations ”

this looks the best match for the physics of my vision with the sixth patriarch

an unopened message travelling in an open timelike curve

“ the strange quantum properties that permit  ‘ impossible ’  computations are left intact ”

i think this is the jackpot, how i had contact with the sixth patriarch, even though the message was unopened some  “ impossible ’  computations occurred permitting/delivering an  “ identity ”  or absolute synchronicity contact

thought the vision occurred more than two decades ago now and i have to some extent lost interest in it, everything has matched up, the phyiscs and history, i have not had any contrary or confirmation upsetting facts, its all been confirmating . .

so i am the trueblockchain .  . !

all you pretending zen lineages, that is why i sacked you, you are outside the authentic blockchain !

when i read reddit zen ,  the  OPs  work for me, when i reply i work for them !

guess which option i am taking !

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when i read reddit zen ,  the  OPs  work for me, when i reply i work for them !

guess which option i am taking !

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when i read reddit zen, the  OPs  work for me, when i reply i work for them !

guess which option i am taking !

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when i read reddit zen, the  OPs  work for me, when i reply i work for them !

guess which option i am taking !

when i read reddit zen, the  OPs  work for me, when i reply i work for them !

guess which option i am taking

an  OP  on  exnocontact

my boyfriend broke up with me after  5.5   years

I know all his passwords and I can't stop checking his activities

I want to stop but I can't  ! ! !

in my crazy head i keep telling my self it is preventing me from calling or texting him but I know its not right

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“ vicarious ”

its not a problem in itself, but in the way it subtracts from your own life ! 

the healing comes in your activities away from him

a f t e r  a l l ,  y o u  a r e  n o w  f r e e

wild indian  gaurs

“ while traveling in south india in  2009  a farmer told us about a herd of gaur that was casually chomping their way through a selection of farms and gardens

we watched them for over an hour as they munched and clambered through the vegetation ”

the   diwan  of abu’l-ala

abandon worship in the mosque and shrink

from idle prayer ,  from sacrificial sheep

for destiny will bring the bowl of sleep

or bowl of tribulation  —  you shall drink

sepehr, you are hitting the wall of a lack of self–reflection, basically you unable to let yourself go and just let things b e . .

you defend viewpoints rather than explore the notion they are wrong and how are they wrong?

if we view ourselves as automata of sorts and what are the axles, pins, wheels and cogs of us ?

when i was a teenager, i was quite impressed by  “ the prisoner ”  tv series, starring and  created  by patrick magoohan, it sorta looks a bit weak on the surface but its reality is quite recursive, sorta mirrors the genesis of the real life creation of the series, he resigned from  “ danger man ”  and in the end number one is revealed to be himself which is how the series was, his creation !

also portmeirion is a very autistic folly !     I  II

but that sense of life as a series of oppressive facades, senseless and the only escape is to recurve back through ourselves and the barriers were never there ! : o)(

sepehr g.  w r i t e s

richard carrier is pretty crazy

good to  read  the whole thing

he is  a narcissistic arsehole  !

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so he is promiscuous!  so what ?

i'm only concerned with the correctness of his scholarship

whereas you just bullshit endlessly, this email you just sent is typical, not worked out, you jump from promiscuous to crazy

you have no notion of  “ scholarship ”  and the work involved and instead you just paste and pretend

you really need to have a very hard think about what you want in life and in fact whether you are really interested in what the 7th zen patriarch board is about at all since you seem to be stuck in a semi-religious  way of thinking !

you have a basic adhd style issue, just some stupid bower bird picking up glinty bits and that's it, the next million hours that needs to be spent sorting things out and making  “ deep structure arrangements ”  you don't do !

i swear you have become more schizophrenic in the recent year !

self reflection frightens you so you are stuck in some repeating circle of having a good intelligence but constantly churning bullshit !

maybe you prefer the smell, i don't know ! ?

the criticism of dr. richard carrier i would have is he is afraid to address muhammad and the koran being fictional !

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all researchers have a personal life, but if the research is quality it stands objective from it !

my reply to some idiot  pretending  to philosophy

you are in too overt a  “semantic-pragmatic”  space and basically what you are writing is nonsense !

there's some good jacques derrida you tubes which are instructive of the process of real philosophy !

its actually process and not hard weighted semantic values like you are using !

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the last sentence of my reply explains the first !

my reply to some idiot pretending to philosophy

you are in too overt a  “semantic-pragmatic”  space and basically what you are writing is nonsense !

there's some good jacques derrida you tubes which are instructive of the process of real philosophy !

its actually process and not hard weighted semantic values like you are using !

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my last sentence explains my first sentence !

my reply to some idiot pretending to philosophy

you are in too overt a  “semantic-pragmatic”  space and basically what you are writing is nonsense !

there's some good jacques derrida you tubes which are instructive of the process of real philosophy !

its actually process and not hard weighted semantic values like you are using !

sepehr,  you are a chronic non listener, your little  “system”  is just some  schizophrenic  waffle ,  blatant consumerism and not that of a creator !

why do you post on the 7th zen patriarch blog ?

the invitation is to always engage things, but you just create the discrete categories of a critic thinking you have done something, but in effect all you have ended up with is yet another of the endless and infinitely retarded proxy systems that humans seem to go by as  “true ”

sepehr g. w r i t e s

I consider my cats my children.  I don't care if they're a different species btw

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having fed and observed some half tame feral cats around where i live for many years i think they consider me as a sort of super being they try to relate to as a cat, but underneath there is always a  f e a r  of  me  . .

“ the inhabitants of the earth are of two sorts :  those with brains, but no religion, and those with religion, but no brains ”

no wonder jihadists beheaded Al-Maʿarri's statue 10 centuries later ! : o )

it may well be that the extreme intolerance of today's jihadi movements are in fact a modern construct as the worst that happened toAl-Maʿarri in his  life time  was a possible expulsion from bagdad . .

sepehr  w r i t e s

I'll get back to writing that play, which will be the best ever.

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i don't know why but this verse of anna arkhmatova came to mind

who mourns one woman in a holocaust,

surely her death has no significance ?

yet in my heart she never will be lost,

she who gave up her life to steal one glance

perhaps it was the verse beforehand ?

her eyes that were still turning when a bolt

of pain shot through them, were instantly blind;

her body turned into  transparent  salt,

and her swift legs were rooted to the ground.

who mourns one woman in a holocast, surely her death has no significance,  yet in my heart she never will be lost, she who gave up her life to steal one glance

quote by anna arkhmatova from her poem  ‘ lot's wife ’

who mourns one woman in a holocast, surely her death has no significance,  yet in my heart she never will be lost, she who gave up her life to steal one glance

quote by anna arkhmatova

i quite like theredpill, it has alot of good advice on dealing with and understanding women, but they can't get around the fact that if they want to have children they need women !

intentionally or  u n i n t e n t i o n a l l y

bizarre !

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stonehenge was  first built  in wales ,  then  “ removed ”  150 miles to the salisbury plain !

i remember reading this view of noam chomsky's as a young man and never bothered with grammar again, its all semantic   hierarchies   in my view !

“ one of the foundational elements of chomsky's work is that we have a grammar in our head, which underlies our processing of language

neurophysiological findings support this theory :  we make sense of strings of words because our brains combine words into constituents in a hierarchical manner  —  a process that reflects  an internal grammar mechanism  ”

high doses of  green tea  may cause  too much  apoptosis, or cell death, impairing reproduction and development !



“  all traditional triggers had a propensity to generate oxidative stress, an imbalance between the production of free radicals and the ability of the body to counteract their harmful effects.

the  findings  suggest that antioxidants might help prevent or preempt migraines

an acute migraine attack may be an attempt by the brain to protect itself, and possibly  —  when you look at certain chemicals released during an attack  —  to heal itself  ”


modern western life having an anti-celibate stance and the authentic historical zen being celibate have created a sort of no-man's land of retardation in zen, idiots jizzing to voynich . .

to people like sepehr who are married and have a strongly anti–natal stance i can only suggest that you look strongly at the possibility you will have a child despite your inclination with its very demanding need for you to provide a good income to your family

to earn good money you have to be  “ functional ” ,  spending your time bullshitting on web message boards is anti-functional, the 7th zen patriarch blog offers you an opportunity to approach zen functionally and not the usual damaged wreck, yet all you can do is jizz schizophrenic blather like  kogen  and not do any real self examination

you know traversing either fork arm with/as your life requires being real, whether as a zen celibate or as  ‘married with kids’  and being an adequate father to your future children ,  yet you take neither fork and end up in a bizarre and perverse non-man's land like the rest of meiji zen !

there is some final answer to the mystery of life which takes a life's work to sort out, the point is that when you do sort it out then your life is valid despite being childless, you understand what's what, but all the zen fakes are forever claiming to have sorted the mystery out but haven't of course and feel inadequate without having children, so they breed or if they don't breed pass their lives in a state believing societies dissing them for being childless !

the problem with assigning  “ blame ”  or mistakes or wrong turnings after a relationship break up, is, to take a point of view like that there has to be an underlying validity to relationships themselves

there is no underlying validity, so all bets are off !

the problem with assigning  “ blame ”  after a relationship break up, is, to take a point of view like that there has to be an underlying validity to relationships themselves

there is no underlying validity, so all bets are off !

fascinatingly boring people with a  stupidly limited  world view !

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i grew up around rich people, they are very boring

fascinatingly boring people with a  stupidly limited  world view !

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i grew up around rich people, they are very boring

fascinatingly boring people with a  stupidly limited  world view !

the reality is that most people now know zen through the internet and alan watts actually rather than   ‘ real life ’  zen and zen centers

you can argue it's a negative, one thing zen in real life is good at is teaching is social skills, though the net can do the same for a person preapred to take the time to figure it all out  . .

the other big social change is the huge profusion of non duality teachers, literally thousands which has dramatically depleted zen's new intake  (zen has an aging  “subscriber base” )

the sex scandals have also been hugely damaging

the end result is a collection of highly fractionated indigent groups componded by the failure of the transmission system to produce teachers of quality !

a good  video  on caste in a macaque monkey troop !

a lot of human behavior makes sense in the light of our likely evolutionary precedents !

the thing about women is, how can an object of beauty behave so badly ?

i guess they ask the same thing about children ?

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the thing about women is, how can an object of beauty behave so badly ?

i guess they ask the same thing about children ?

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the thing about women is, how can an object of beauty behave so badly ?

i guess they ask the same thing about children ?

the thing about women is, how can an object of beauty behave so badly ?

the thing about women is, how can an object of beauty behave so badly

macrosopic quantum   uncertainty ,  absurd  ?  :  o ( )

jon  w r i t e s

i saw people making posts recommending this show but i'm too narrow minded about things nowadays.  my thinking is that it's just another bullshit cartoon with nothing to offer . . .  just another thing for retards to jizz over

but yeah i'm still not gonna check it out . .  well maybe . . 

also it's been pretty warm this year.  i saw this beautiful sunset a few days back, intense orange mixed with the clouds and you could still see the blue sky . . .  it was weird.  wish i took a photo because i'm pretty bad at describing things

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yeah its so fucked it burnt my mind, since sepehr appears to be watching this sort of crap its no wonder he keeps regressing, same for his fixation with anime !

good post jon !

macrosopic quantum   uncertainty ,  absurd  ?  :  o ( )

macrosopic quantum   uncertainty ,  absurd ? : o()

macrosopic quantum uncertainty ,  absurd ? : o()

macrosopic quantum uncertainty, absurd ? : o()

jason asks

what's the difference between being alone and solitude ?

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neither of them are words i use, i might say  “ i live by myself ” ,  but  ‘ solitude ’  or  ‘ being alone ’  are not things i feel !

why people take validity from posting screeds of .01% worked out bullshit i don't know, but that is a lot of the content of the internet !

in terms of what true mysticism is about ,  being married or in a relationship is an almost insuperable disadvantage

in terms of what true mysticism is about, being married or in a relationship is an almost insuperable disadvantage

in terms of what true mysticism is about being married or in a relationship is an almost insuperable disadvantage

in terms of what true mysticism is about ,  being married is an almost insuperable disadvantage

in terms of what true mysticism is about, being married is an almost insuperable disadvantage

in terms of what true mysticism is about being married is an almost insuperable disadvantage

Contacted my ex today  —  Girls on this  subreddit  help me with this ?

So I was studying and heard a song that we had an inside joke about, and I texted her about it.  She texted back fairly quickly about it.  I ended up asking her if she was doing okay, and didn't get a response an hour or so later.  Usually she's pretty good with her phone.  Do girls do this to play mind games or is she just genuinely not interested ?

Update :  She responded after a few hours  —  “ I'm alright but I could be better, how about you ? ” 

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maybe she's already had and broken up with a new lover ,  (ed.  3 weeks no contact)  you just don't know what the story is

to me the one consistent factor of a break up is it hasn't worked and won't again

you are only setting yourself up for ptsd and crimping your own life by maintaining any illusion of repair . .

“ the passion for setting people right is in itself an afflictive disease ”

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quote from marianne  moore

face by me ! :o)

“ the passion for setting people right is in itself an afflictive disease ”

quote from marianne moore

the deepest feeling always shows itself in silence;  not in silence, but restraint

marianne moore

god, philosophy  PHDs  mean  nothing  !

“ later, however, I concluded that what nietzsche’s radical individualism misses is that human flourishing is to a large extent a matter of the relationships we enjoy with others ”

not true !

you are not really into philosophy at heart are you, try a different career

nothing worse than being second rate in an obscure field ! :o(

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i only post to teach myself, its a big mistake to worry about educating others, when the utility to yourself stops, then stop the writing !

like for instance i have found it useful to think a bit on what  you asked  and replied to it

what you said was reasonable  (ed.  i should explain my objections more) ,  unlike the very wrong minded nonsense don berry posted on nietszche, but really academic philosophy has a bad reputation now for narrow minded incompetence, why bother to attempt to sort that sort of thing out ?

i think intel are stupid, the most glaring example is them religiously pushing the geometry envelope when more relaxed scheduling would result in more time between generations, less fab and development cost and a more stable and better designed product base

the trouble is when you cut  a corner  there is no saying what the increase in failure rate is, could be .01%, could be 10%, could be 50% over several y e a r s

this is why i always wait a year after a new generation has come out so that effectively the beta testing is done by other users, same with windows 10, might wait till march next year !

a biting  satire  using the hybridization theme/meme written by mikhail bulgakov in 1925 ,  wiki

“ women are natural masters at machiavellian manipulation and operating in a very self-centric manner ”

“ I will likely  text  her on christmas to say I'm thinking about her or something ”

i wouldn't say that, just stick to  “ have nice christmas ”  that's the appropriate social distance, better for her to realise that too !

women are always chasing some sort of dream, with exes, let them find it in a place that doesn't do you any harm which means at the least a formal social distance !

“ women have a funny way of working through their problems ,  and discovering a bit too late in life that they made  the wrong choice  ”

“ women have a funny way of working through their problems ,  and discovering a bit too late in life that they made the wrong choice  ”

“ the basis for the contradictory nature of all existence  bahnsen  places in the will

the thesis that a  ‘ blind will ’  makes for the irrationality of existence had already been maintained by schopenhauer

but his introduction of the platonic ideas and the power he bestowed on the intellect brought some order and reason into a wilful regime, bahnsen's will, on the other hand, is and remains uncompromisingly irrational, admitting no logical monitor to interfere with its activities

the whole realm of existence is the exclusive manifestation of its capriciousness ”

some women are an attachment nightmare  !

not what you'd expect with men supposedly the more  “ loose ”  component !

but there it is  !

some women are an attachment nightmare  !

not what you'd expect with men supposedly the more  “ loose ”  component !

some women are an attachment nightmare  !

some women are an attachment nightmare !

some women are an attachment nightmare

good ivan titor    pics

julius bahnsen's  epitaph

vita mea irritus labor

my life is wasted labour

interestingly  “ moby – dick ”  was conceived in london ,  in part  inspired  by william turner's whaling series paintings and a one legged beggar on tower hill with a placard around his neck showing the whale that did that to him !

there is a later echo in  “ captain hook ”  !

sometimes this world is a bit small ,  “ brother theodore ”  was helped to emigrate to the  USA  by albert einstein who possibly had been his mothers lover !

I   II   III

actually there's a group photo including einstein as a young man at a physics conference and of all the men he stands out as being more than a physicist, a personal presence, a really smooth man about town in his manner and dapper suit !

“ julius bahnsen's more persistent claim is that the nature of actual existence is polar ,  that objects and events   conflict    with one another and  (since they possess opposed properties)  also with themselves and that existence therfore eludes being grasped by formal logic ”

extreme  volunteerism

“ this is what i have to do for the rest of my life ”

it all looks sane until your health packs up

then you wonder what's what

living  PTSD  i am afraid, but then isn't life ?

i saw a good quote by joko beck ,  “ people don't want to practice ,  they want to appear to practice ”

its the  u n i v e r s a l  s t o r y

i saw a good quote by joko beck ,  “ people don't want to practice ,  they want to appear to practice ”

its the  u n i v e r s a l  story

i saw a good quote by joko beck ,  “ people don't want to practice ,  they want to appear to practice ”

its the u n i v e r s a l story

sepehr, a max stirner quote

“ if the child has not an object that it can occupy itself with, it feels ennui;  for it does not yet know how to occupy itself with itself ”

so you occupy yourself with various philosophical positions, media entertainment ,  the 7th zen patriarch board to abate the ennui, but you never progress to the next step !

sepehr, you have not addressed the original post or the replies i have made so far and just throw up some wordy  bullshit  that as far as i can see means nothing !

rebirth/reincarnation fails because it is internally inconsistent and fits no real world context !

it fits plenty of imaginary ones !

every time you post on the 7th zen patriarch blog you just show this insane hubris and confidence on understanding what you have never worked at, just pasting disjoint items claiming an overall coherence !

you need rebirth but are never going to get it ! :o)

rebirth/reincarnation fails because it is internally inconsistent and fits no real world context !

it fits plenty of imaginary ones !

persistent  pupillary  membrane

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notions of rebirth are effectively a form of  “heaven”  and divine judgement and the afterlife, they are needed to justify certain belief systems and moral philosophies since job's problem ,  ie  “ the good die young ”  !

notions of rebirth are effectively a form of  “heaven”  and divine judgement and the afterlife, they are needed to justify certain belief systems and moral philosophies since job's problem ,  ie  “ the good die young ”  ! 

notions of rebirth are effectively a form of  “heaven”  and divine judgement and the afterlife, they are needed to justify certain belief systems and moral philosophies since job's problem ,  ie  “ the good die young ” !

a quote by sepehr g. from  a thread discussion

. . . which is why I've argued for rebirth after dying.  in truth, I don't believe or disbelieve it, but I used it to push for my agendas

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what evidence do you have that causes you to  “ believe ”  in rebirth ?

you're like zakaj ,  take very wrong turnings and build crazy structures upon them !

not that isn't the norm for philosophy, but really a belief in rebirth is such a wrong turning ,  the least you can do is come up with some evidence ! :o)

ethics needs to be answered on the personal and not the abstract level

that is, what you do and its consequences ,  not theories about what should be done in general  !

i think that's because the future is so unknown and the complete hashing of intention and effect that life seems to give !

ethical models and indeed philosophy imply a certain level of stability and  ‘ knowingness ’  about life that is just not the case !

ethics needs to be answered on the personal and not the abstract level

that is, what you do and its consequences ,  not theories about what should be done in general  !

i think that's because the future is so unknown and the complete hashing of intention and effect that life seems to give !

ethics needs to be answered on the personal and not the abstract level

that is, what you do and its consequences ,  not theories about what should be done in general  !

ethics needs to be answered on the personal and not the abstract level

that is, what you do and its consequences ,  not theories about what should be done in general

ethics needs to be answered on the personal and not the abstract level

that is, what you do and its consequences, not theories about what should be done in general

“ IBD  actually may be an  array  of bowel disorders

this new research strongly suggests that we are dealing a number of different diseases hidden within crohn's disease and ulcerative colitis, constituting a large spectrum of inflammatory bowel disease . .  .  ”

type 2 diabetics need to  remove  one gram of fat from the pancreas to become diabetes free, in other words, its important not to be overweight but lean !

myocardial wall stress has some unpleasant  brain corollaries

smaller total brain volume and larger white matter lesion volume ,  with brain volume loss predominantly in the gray matter

i'm not a hundred percent as anti sugar as i used to be, especially a very small amount when you haven't eaten for a while to line the gut and provide an energy source for good microbiome !

white chocolate/dark chocolate ,  leatherwood  or  yellow box honey  (figures 1 and 2)  in hot milk  (pasturizes!)  are possibilities !



the reason why reincarnation is nonsense is it would imply quantum processes were reversible since in effect reincarnation is a sort of  starting again !

“ this brain of mine is something more than merely mortal . . .  before ten years are over ,  the devil’s in it if I have not sucked out some of the life-blood from the mysteries of this universe ”

the quote is from ada lovelace's notes to her translations of federico menabrea's paper on charles babbage's analytic engine !

i had no idea she was lord byrons   daughter  !

“ women are women, stop expecting them to think and act like men ”

ravens in the early morning here will run their beaks under the skin of the jaws of wallabies left out in the paddocks after a hunt, to eat the thyroids

way more intelligent than today's humans who don't seem to understand that iodine is an essential element and have eliminated  “ neck sweetbreads ”  from the diet  (they go to petfood now !)

having eaten wallaby thyroids, i suspect that there's other nutritional factors that are of use in the thyroid besides iodine, it's really of benefit !

“ I'm glad I realized that what I did was horrible ”

coming from a child client in treatment who had permanently damaged his little sister

reddit post by a therapist who works   ‘ with some very extreme cases ’

i never thought of glaciers flowing, but that's what they do !

GIF :  Animation of Panmah and Choktoi glaciers in Pakistan ,  1/3  the way down the  page  !

 more  !

i'm in australia and we have viruses  like that   (ed.  caught in bermuda)  which basically generate antigens that cause autoimmunity attack, in your case on the nerves !

  zinc seems to help with this

a good quality krill oil helps with brain and neural plasticity

multivitamin formulations have  “ garden fertilizer ”  type minerals in which cause bad gut microbiome

you also want to look at  “ leaky gut ”  and the SCD and BCD diets

these viruses can take a year or two to get over, the future is not hopeless, just try things out, medical names are of limited help !

getting strong sun on the skin is also immunosuppressive, you don't need much, but a little may be helpful and oral vitamin D will help as well !

  “ 1)  Turn off the computer ”

gesshin, i think there's a deeper issue you  are bridling at ,  you delete my quality replies but promote vaporous bullshit replies with your in fact better writing and some of these twits that reply to you do nothing but use your space to promote their bullshit websites . .

maybe you can see the whole zen thing unravelling for you, aoyama roshi did not approve of you and had some hard criticisms that you have ignored hoping zen was some comfy proxy system that would leave the real you intact . .

the problem with meds is side effects, way better to find other ways around the problem . .  !

it seems such a simple thing to say, but the vast majority of people on the reddit health boards seem clueless about this, so many posts by people on several or many meds complaining about this and that  (what are actually side effects)  but won't look at the problem being the meds, in fact these days with terminal illnesses its often the med side effects like the chemo for pancreatic cancer that kills and not the cancer itself as that is what gives the longest life !

the problem with meds is side effects, way better to find other ways around the problem . .  !

the problem with meds is side effects, way better to find other ways around the problem . . !

way to go,   writing   the text to exnocontact and never texting them at all  !

writing it out takes you to a different space and puts you ahead of them, then not to send it cripples them because they don't get that advantage of processing

helps you and hurts them . .

that's the basic issue, they have damaged you and can return to contact with you only on your terms, which will never happen of course so the ways part, but still the deep structure of your life has been righted and things can move on  . .

i think reddit zen is basically buddhist zen versus buji zen, if not for ewk the buddhists would have overwhelmed it long ago . .

they are welcome to each other and the subreddit does a fine job of keeping these retarded pyschward inmates out of circulation.. to the extent that it will be a sorry day when ewk for whatever reason ceases to post !

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i think reddit zen is basically buddhist zen versus buji zen, if not for ewk the buddhists would have overwhelmed it long ago . .

they are welcome to each other and the subreddit does a fine job of keeping these retarded pyschward inmates out of circulation.. to the extent that it will be a sorry day when ewk for whatever reason ceases to post !

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i think reddit zen is basically buddhist zen versus buji zen, if not for ewk the buddhists would have overwhelmed it long ago . .

they are welcome to each other and the subreddit does a fine job of keeping these retarded pyschward inmates out of circulation.. to the extent that it will be a sorry day when ewk for whatever reason ceases to post !

i think reddit zen is basically buddhist zen versus buji zen, if not for ewk the buddhists would have overwhelmed it long ago . .

“ no contact ”  is an enforcement of a   disagreement   on your validity and treatment as a person with the ex . . .

it recognizes things won't change or improve and the only resolution is separation and minimizing contact - - -

“ no contact ”  is an enforcement of a disagreement on your validity and treatment as a person with the ex . . .

it recognizes things won't change or improve and the only resolution is separation and minimizing contact - - -

“ for reasons I won't discuss, I was detained for  72  hours in a californian psychward

I benefited far more by discussions with other patients than with the therapy like stringing beads

I was in a conversation with another patient who told me  ‘ before you believe anything I say ,  please remember that I'm paranoid delusional ’  ”

“ for reasons I won't discuss, I was detained for  72  hours in a californian psychward.  I benefited far more by discussions with other patients than with the therapy like stringing beads.  I was in a conversation with another patient who told me  ‘ before you believe anything I say ,  please remember that I'm paranoid delusional ’  ”

ED is an early warning sign of cardiovascular disease !

dementia is also known as type 3 diabetes !

high blood sugar is really destructive to the brain !

well its all learning experience, i have learnt much more about women from the break up of my relationship ,  than i ever did being in it !

well its all learning experience, i have learnt much more about women from the break up of my relationship , than i ever did being in it !

well its all learning experience, i have learnt much more from the break up of my relationship about women, than i ever did being in it !

“ people with low self esteem are bedevilled by proselytisers ”

intelligence and reading around will protect you from that !

its fascinating to read up on the web the real stories behind the missionary bullshit

and actually its in every avenue of life, personal and business !

“ people with low self esteem are bedevilled by proselytisers ”

intelligence and reading around will protect you from that !

its fascinating to read up on the web on the real stories behind the missionary bullshit

and actually its in every avenue of life, personal and business !

 bilbunya dunes, nytsland nature reserve

  59DEN

 lynn webb, 'twilight cove and the southern ocean' nytsland nature reserve

great australian bight

it is likely our universe is just one amongst a huge number of others ,  only a tiny few of which will be able to give rise to life for some limited duration !

the mystical branches of religion give a much better understanding of this sort of thing ,  the great saints and mystics were bedevilled by low self esteem . .

and there's the poets of course

you're intelligent and i would have to say the world and reddit in general are not, if you stick to the information they feed you, you will get destructively dragged down, that's why it's important to read around, for example the pillow book of  sei shonagon ,  very intelligent women with similar issues like  izumi shikibu ,  it gives robustness . .

steering by the lights of  “normality”  just makes those with the potential for larger vision fragile wrecks !

if you can deprecate yourself, you are halfway to understanding the world ! :o)

he's yet another of the many hubric  “the world must be the way i see it”  attention deficit nuts on reddit ! : o(

cleitus the black's   I  II   problem was ,  if he listened to what he had  accused  alexander of ,  he would have known his life was in danger ! : o (

the fate of his friends should have been enough warning to him  !

the brutal fist of compulsion

“ they do much  worse  to women who challenge their politics !

 they leave them in a place nearby where the hyenas hunt, they are eaten alive ! ”

the brutal fist of compulsion

the iron fist of compulsion

what you love  you injure  through very poor judgement !

what you love  you injure  through very poor judgement !

what you love you hurt through very poor judgement !

what you love you hurt through poor judgement !

PTSD

“ you really want to hurt anybody who disagrees with you ! ”

what the  “ no contact ”  does is walk you away from the  PTSD  of the breakup and relationship !

with  ptsd  there's no right way, only distance . .

what the  “ no contact ”  does is walk you away from the  PTSD  of the breakup and relationship !

with ptsd there's no right way, only distance . .

what the  “ no contact ”  does is walk you away from the  PTSD  of the breakup and relationship !

what the  “ no contact ”  does is walk you away from the  PTSD  of the breakup and often, relationship !

what the  “ no contact ”  does is walk you away from the  PTSD  of the breakup and often, relationship

“ the frequent use of high potency cannabis significantly affects  the structure  of white matter fibres in the brain, whether you have psychosis or not

this reflects a sliding scale where the more cannabis you smoke and the higher the potency, the worse the damage will be ”

women are always pursuing some dream  of  conception  !

women are always pursuing some dream of  conception  !

women are always pursuing some dream of conception  !

women are always pursuing some dream of conception !

women are always pursuing some dream of conception


the glory days  (financially !)  of zen and the rest of the  “pseudo spiritual”  circuit are past     I  II

the whole scene has developed into slightly crazed individual  “ teachers ’  and for getting something wrong with dollops of schizophrenia to boot, there's a limited market  divided  amongst many housewives and househusbands  !

in actual fact zen has never been popular from the historical records, its peak with abbots like hongzhi zhengjue, dahui zonggao and huangbo who according to the records were appointed to large monasteries, these abbots in fact lacked complete understanding . .

the real ones like joshu were most likely always on the point of starvation,  . .

the real insanity is to be on the point of starvation like brad warner, adam tebbe, lisa cairns etc to spew nonsense  . .

the centers, ashrams etc of da free john, sasaki, osho, eido shimano, maezumi were all highly promiscuous, the rampant  STD  rate has now put an end to that, i wonder if those centers and their stupid bullshit only ever got off the ground because of their  “free sex”  ethic, now free means  “stds”  and those centers have dried up !

now the internet has created its own inclusive paradigm, a host of  “devil spawn”  indigent nuts with the power of internet marketing . .

i hardly dream

but actually its more like i don't remember them

if i'm interrupted in sleep and in the dreaming stage then i do remember them as i come out into the waking state

women are always pursuing some dream of unconceived children   ! 

women are always pursuing some dream of unconceived children  !

women are always pursuing some dream of unconceived children !

women are always pursuing some dream of unconceived children

“ william james suggests that mystical experience is defined by a temporary but deep-seated sense of connection with something beyond the ken of our normal lives

this sense is fleeting but very real  –  so real that it reverberates through the rest of our lives

in some people, this mystical experience leads to a sort of belief

not the dogmatic sort, but what james calls pervasive  ‘ zest ’  for life

zest :  the feeling of a keen   passion ”

i think the hard fact of men and women is that men are never the priority for women ,  its the illusory shadows of yet to be conceived children they are always chasing !

i think the hard fact of men and women is that men are never the priority for women, its the illusory shadows of yet to be conceived children they are always chasing !

i think the hard fact of men and women is that men are never the priority for women ,  its the illusory shadows of unborn children they are always chasing !

i think the hard fact of men and women is that men are never the priority for women, its the illusory shadows of unborn children they are always chasing !


adam tebbe  w a n k i n g  again

i'd love to hear your comments or dialogue

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unless you are me who you banned !

is that ethically challenged ?

when you are with the  ‘ real zen ’  you will have competence and nobody can hold a candle to y o u . .

the reality of zen and any authentic mystical tradition is true celibacy, the moment you get away from that you run into issues !

this zen you devote your life to promoting is a meiji era nationalist japanese construct, the top has blown off it recently . . .

do you ever think about your extreme altruism, i have the same problem and for sure do ! : o(

you don't understand zen and your life has become some maudlin promotion of a bunch of bullshit

did your mother raise you to spill your life away in this manner ?

when you get a chip on your shoulder or a relationship break up doesn't seem to resolve for you ,  that means there has been extreme trauma  !

PTSD  actually   !

when you get a chip on your shoulder or a relationship break up doesn't seem to resolve for you ,  that means there has been extreme trauma  !

PTSD actually !

when you get a chip on your shoulder or a relationship break up doesn't seem to resolve for you ,  that means there has been extreme trauma  !

when you get a chip on your shoulder or a relationship break up doesn't seem to resolve for you ,  that means there has been extreme trauma !

when you get a chip on your shoulder or a relationship break up doesn't seem to resolve for you, that means there has been extreme trauma !

so, the glycemic index got shot down in   flames   ! 

being fat makes you  dumber   ! :o (

“ normally in the brain, microglia are constantly moving around.  they are always moving around their little fingers and processes.  what happens in obesity is they stop moving, they draw in all their processes; they basically just sit there and start eating synapses ”

from reddit  exnocontact

Help me not contact him

It's been 7 months since the break up.  I accept it, yet i can't stop myself when i occasionally get an urge to text him.  He has done better than me by not responding to me.  I need help with breaking this habit, but self control over this issue is proving to be insanely difficult.

Is there a way of blocking off all texting from cell phone usage without affecting data ?  I need my phone for work, but could do without the texting ability.  Needing something more difficult than just blocking him.  Other advice is also much appreciated.

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use this  OP  and write your text messages on it here instead of sending them to him !

you'll get the message ! :o)

in a way you are creating a sort of avatar which is how they were on the point of break up, but since the break up you and he have moved on and are different, one learns one is pursuing a memory . .

OP  replies

This is way too true.

I am just chasing the memory of something that was a year ago.

My friends at this point want nothing to me talking about him, they think I should just move on.  I can't help but feel like it's very cruel of them to say that, even if it is true, because I am equally aware of that fact, and I would really want nothing more.

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did you find the relationship traumatic ?  do you think you were injured by him ?

homer's account of the seige of wilusha/troy   I  II   by the mycenaeans is in fact a condensation of centuries of warfare between the mycenaean and hittite empires over actual coastline and the city of troy

maybe over that period a ruling class beauty did leave her husband for a lover in another state with catastrophic military consequences ?

it's interesting to compare the emerging historical veracity of this sort of thing e.g.   the queen of sheba  having existed and had a very rich gold mine and the almost complete balderdash of  the historicity claims  of religion . . .

from   askreddit

We were together for 10 years or so, high school sweethearts I guess.

We were great together, had all the same interests in games and movies.  We fit really well and she was my best friend.

But we didn't challenge each other, because we were too alike.  It made us sloppy, and made our shortcomings much worse.  Our house kind of sucked and we drank too much and took drugs.  We both kind of needed someone who could say no, instead of fuck yeh.

Eventually it kind of petered out.  I broke up with her, then we sort of swung back together, then she broke up with me.

We're friends on FB.  We're both married with kids and living better lives with partners who make us better people.  It was for the best.

That said I do miss her, and that time, very much.  But you can't go back, and usually you shouldn't.

with the endless health advice i have given on r/askdocs and medical there's always a last line wether its included in the  PM  or not

“ you are the one that benefits, doing the necessary research and reading is in your court ! ”

i'm being spread too thin, i think i am dropping them . .

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's   continuity ,  if you don't then everything looks insane   ! 

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's   continuity ,  if you don't then everything looks insane !

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's   continuity ,  if you don't then everything looks insane

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's continuity ,  if you don't then everything looks insane   ! 

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's continuity, if you don't then everything looks insane   ! 

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's continuity, if you don't then everything looks insane !

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's continuity, if you don't then everything looks insane

which is true ?

everything looks sane if you allow the validity of time and it's continuity, if you don't then everything looks insane

tananae on r/zen   writes

I don't really want to go into it too much  (because it's embarrassing)  but I have what I'm pretty sure is called  ‘ makyo ’  that hasn't left me alone  (on a second to second basis)  since I first experienced it.  It's quite serious as I blame it as being the main/one of the causes for me being suicidal.

The experience I had always sits in the back of my head as a constant reminder of  ‘ the true nature ’  of things.  Even though I know it isn't yet I still seem attached to it.

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that's not makyo

holding things  “ at the back of the head ”  so to speak is enlightenment, and yes it is a sort of rolling suicide !

you need some of the  “ bones ”  of the ancients to make progress/survive, check out the 7th zen patriarch !

some replies i don't want to send, but i'll send this i guess . .  : o (

ed.  he completely ignored what i had to say and flaps around like a diseased fish, its hard to feel any sympathy for these people when they so entrench themselves in seeking bullshit and reject any harshness helpful to them !

there's no revenge except living longer . .  take care of your health !

there's no revenge except living longer . .  take care of your health


my parents 60th wedding anniversary the first of december

the invitation photo showing groom, bride, groomsmen, brides maids amongst whom i recognise an uncle and aunt walking down the front steps of my mothers parent's house in victoria avenue

that same house with the grand piano downstairs and the front gates my brother and i sat on waving a real sword at passers by

now has the second completely rebuilt house on the site

memories irretrievably lost

meaning so much while they occurred, yet now to haunt the slowly dying r a c e

this is where the crunch comes with digestive issues ,  you actually have to read and try things on the  SCD  and  BCD  diets, it's a lot of work and i only did it because i had to otherwise i think i would be dead by now ! :o(

it's a life mission, i had to go there, whether of course you do that is up to you !

the thing about a medical test is, is it going to tell you anything useful that is worth the risks and time associated with the tests ?

people who talk about love have  disrupted  attachment mechanisms !

he sounds a bit  “ borderline personality ”  actually, used to words filling in for substance !

they never let their own needs be compromised !

there's so many damaged men like that around these days i think one should expect sustained periods of celibacy rather than go through that sort of mill !

people who talk about love have disrupted attachment mechanisms !

this  video  is very good !

the trifonov pechengsky monastery located on the kolsky peninsula, russia

what a climate !

konstantin korovin,    st. triphon's brook in pechenga    1894

the internet has  killed  this sort of thing ,  they just look superstitious ignorant idiots !

what a break up is can take a long time to hit you, i am one who has taken a while to get that my ex is  “ out of my life ”  and it's better for both of us that way ! :o)

i used to think one could be  “ friends ”  but amicable is the best one can do !


a monk asked  :   why can't i see the truth ?

zhaozhou replied  :   it  isn't that the truth is not there ,  you just can't see it

the monk said  :   what is it, then ?

zhaozhou said  :   missing the truth

my  a n s w e r  to the monk's first question

what are you asking ?

a monk asked  :   why can't i see the truth ?

zhaozhou replied  :   it isn't that the truth is not there ,  you just can't see it

the monk said  :   what is it, then ?

zhaozhou said  :   missing the truth

my  a n s w e r  to the monk's first question

what are you asking ?